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Some thoughts?

I find that when I truly accept myself, love myself, sympathize with myself, and recognize myself, many emptiness and doubts come to mind. I don't know whether my choice is right or not. I don't know whether the praise and pursuit from the outside world will continue. I don't know whether I will follow suit or have a bright future.The original comfort is to strangle all your possibilities, is to let you be willing to indulge in suffocation in the comfort circle, is your unrepentant degeneration. 

It is only because of the empty appearance that it is also a mirage.I found that I could not write. I no longer believe that the acknowledged happiness is immediately extinguished by anxiety and resentment and pain.I am no longer irritable, sensitive and suspicious. I am confident, generous and humorous, but I also lost my most precious things. I used to believe in conservation, and I thought someone could get everything for no reason. 

But now I am absolutely convinced that there are no gold keys and crystal shoes. We exchange things for each other. All gifts that we thought were given by God are priced in secret.Gradually, it was occupied by the secular world.You ask me, when fame and fortune fill the heart and lungs, when poetry, wine, flowers and tea are far away, they become past.

I went back and forth trying to find the candlelight that I had abandoned. I repeat it over and over again, monotonous and unremitting.I tried to put aside my obsession and return to that pure heart.I tried to look up and look for my cloud in the bright light.All my weaknesses, all my weird ideas.Maybe they has been covered by the sand of time, maybe they are still alive.

Anyway, I love it. Love literature and writing, love photography and life, love the world, love me.Being alone is the most relaxing time. Listen to the tune of the chaotic song, write some words, imagination, free.Warmth is the temperature of transmission, and it is also the thing I most desire. In the winter and snow, I hide my hot heart and embrace the people I love, melting my heart.